“If she is our true Luna Queen she will understand sharing anything that is needed with these ladies. No one else has ever been up here or allowed that privilege, so it shouldn’t be a big deal.” His eyes tell me he may not believe his own speech, but I’m not going to call him out on it though. I know they are both worried about finding their Luna soon, before the Elders find a way to force a marriage for Xander. “Have you two marked each other yet? Or are you waiting for your Luna?” I don’t know why the question fell out of my face like that, but now I am curious.
“We were waiting, wanting it to be special for all of us, but the longer it takes the less sure I am about waiting.” Xander says keeping his focus on his plate. “At least if we are marked they can’t try to make me give Oscar up. The best argument they will have is adding a female which is what we are waiting on anyway. My parents want to wait until they force our hand or we find our Luna to tell anyone though, because everything is still so volatile and people like Bastian and Chandler will try to spin the narrative to ‘electing’ the next Alpha King since I won’t produce an heir with my male mate.” He finally looks at me and rolls his eyes.
We talk into the night just getting to know each other. Jena opens up about life in her pack before the attack and Mina and I talk about life on campus. Barty watches over us, coming and going to replenish food or drinks. Not for the first time, I wonder if he is watching Jena and I for signs of anything bad. I mean he knows me and my history, but with what we know of the Rogue King’s methods, he turns people agains the Royals with clever words, bribery and threats. For all they know Jena and I could have been turned to their side and gathering information on the Royal family to send back to them. I still can’t think of Mike as the Rogue King, they are two different people in my head. Something about him tells me he is a pawn just like the rest of the guys we met, he’s just high up in the ranks. That didn’t stop the implications that he is the Rogue King from floating around though.
Yeah, if the situation was reversed, I wouldn’t trust Jena and I right now. But, the only way to gain trust is to prove ourselves everyday. Which is all either of us can do.
I don’t know when it happened, but somehow Jena, Mina and I ended up in Xander’s bed. Jena and I were off to one side and Oscar and Xander sandwiched Mina. Jena tossed and turned next to me, but she didn’t wake up screaming like she has been lately which I will take as a good sign. I sit up slowly not wanting to disturb anyone. I know it’s early, the soft light of the morning is barely visible through the curtains Wyatt and Nathaniel are sleeping on the comfy reclining chairs in front of the fireplace, not leaving their posts, even in the safety of the castle.
I just smile looking at my crew of friends, so much like back home. I feel a wash of emotions come over me and tears prick the backs of my eyes. I miss my boys. I have to find a way to see them when they are here for training later this summer. I can’t believe I have been away for almost a year now, I think wiping the back of my hand under my eyes and walking to the bathroom to handle my morning business and shower all the make-up and hair product off of me.
I want to go back to my room, but I don’t want to wake anyone to escort me and all of them would kill me if I walked alone. So this is my option.
